There are many things that people don't know and can't understand about being a cop or a cop's wife. I've often caught myself in a whirlwind of feelings and emotions concerning the topic. Although I am very proud of what my husband does, I often become overwhelmed by the extra baggage associated with his job. From the moment my husband made his career choice, I knew about the dangers and emotional stress of the job, but I never gave any thought to the other ways it would affect us.
Affliction
It's hard enough knowing that your husband has to drive fast, come in contact with people that have many contagious diseases, and risks his life for someone he doesn't even know. But the hardest part is dealing with all the stuff that spills over from his work to our home. My husband may get to walk out those tall metal doors every day, but they never truly close. It's as if they are always open and work is constantly following, nipping at his heels. It follows him home, to social events, and ultimately consumes his encounters. From not being able to enjoy a meal at a restaurant to constantly being asked "what happened", it never ends and can honestly become very annoying. Then there are the restaurants that we can't even eat at because he has either served the person a warrant or had to learn a little more about their life than he would ever prefer. Therefore, we are constantly watching our backs for spit-on food and grudge holders. Sounds like fun...huh? And then there are the situations where people want to immaturely make constant cop jokes or complain about what cops do and don't do.
I'll never forget the day I was at the Sheriff's Department visiting my husband and a few of his coworkers when a lady who had a little bit of wealth came in. And oh how she thought she was something! She was ranting and raving about some dogs being on her property and how the people at the Sheriff's Department weren't doing their jobs. But what she didn't realize was that they were doing their jobs; they were dealing with things much bigger and much more important than some dogs that she or her family could easily take care of themselves. But I remember the feeling I got hearing her bash my husband and the other deputies. Part of me wanted to jerk her up and ask her if she would rather her or her husband do the job instead of my husband because it's me that has to watch the man I love walk out the door to help and protect people like her. UNGRATEFUL PEOPLE! People who make big deals out of their little problems and forget all the things these deputies and deputies' families sacrifice for them.
My husband has not been a deputy for long, but I have already lost the number of times he has left in a hurry from our home. There have been many times that he has went in-with no pay by the way-to help the other deputies. Obviously he isn't doing it for himself, but he's doing it for the people he works with and the people in this county-because he has that kind of respect for them. I've watched him go in on his days off-no pay by the way-to finish paperwork and other work duties. All of which cut into our family time.
Blessing
I know that I've spent a lot of time "complaining" about my husband's job, but hey this is my blog and if I need to vent then I will. :) I'm just kidding. I know that although we face many challenges as a result of his job, we are truly blessed-I AM TRULY BLESSED! I have a husband that goes to work to provide for our family. I also have a husband that has a respectable job; a job that allows him to make a difference in someone's life and gives him the ability to reach out to people that often need it most. And hey...honestly it does have its perks. I mean who doesn't love knowing what's ok and what's not, especially the "speed limit".
It's so good to know that he is on the good side, even if it feels like the bad and crooked are always winning in this world. He gets to stand for what's just and right. And honestly what more could a woman want in a husband? I get to hold my head high, being proud of what my husband's career is. And I get to hold his hand knowing that he is a great man of God who does a little more each day to further God's kingdom. I know that God has put him there for a reason and he is always with him. When I think of all these things all I can say is WOW and I'm once again thankful- thankful for the pains tagging along, the no pay work, and even the ungrateful people because I know that he is making an impact that is much greater than all of these things.
In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.-1 Thessalonians 5:18
Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ-Ephesians 5:20
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